Friday, December 11, 2015

Depression Stinks!

So I suffer from depression.  it's not a fun thing at all.  Things that I struggle with are keeping moving, and perpetual sadness.  With winter coming on, it makes things really hard.  It makes it hard with less sunlight. I really don't like it at all.  It makes life harder to handle.  
So it's quite hard to explain unless you deal with it everyday.
The main problem is that I don't want to do anything.  This makes me unable to focus.  Then add the continual headache, and day are not good.  I just want to lay around and watch TV.  I can only concentrate for maybe 5 minutes.  It's hard to follow through with anything.
I feel like a failure, I panic about leaving the house.  What if I say the wrong thing.  People must think I am a total slacker.  I don't help anyone because I can't help myself.
I'm not a good mom.  I don't keep on the kids about homework or chores or instruments.  I can't fight with them about everything.  If they don't do it on their own, then it might not get done.
I am super blessed, though.  I have a sweet husband who listens to me.  He picks up the slack.  He takes care of the kids.  He listens to me.

Things that do help:  Chocolate, sunshine, flowers, talking.  I also have found that reading scriptures, listening to conference, and praying are great helps.  It keeps me focused on what matters, and keeps the Spirit of the Holy Ghost close.  Feeling the spirit reminds me who I am, and Whose I am. Pin It

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